I can’t believe it’s that time of the year again! A lot has been going on in my life and I’ve been trying to make sense of it all these past few weeks, so I’ve been quiet on social media lately in order to tune out some of the noise. I still plan on being off social media until the new year, but I do want to write a few blog post before the end of the year.
Here are a few things I’ve been working on this past month:
Packing, donating and throwing away things for my plans to move in February.
Figuring out my writing goals for 2019
Figuring out my personal goals for 2019
Writing down my goals for each week in my new planner
Read 1 magazine from my Hollywood Reporter archive stack
Read 1 book a month
Write 1 blog post
Eat 100% Whole Food Plant Based (no processed vegan junk food)
Workout 4 times a week
Write and/or record journal entry every day
Dance it out 2 times a week (Yep, I’m taking a tip from Shonda Rhimes and dancing it out just like she had her Grey’s Anatomy characters do so many times. I danced it out a few times this past month and it felt amazing.)
So, these are my core goals for the new year. I’m really excited to see how my new goals are going to shape my progress as a writer and how my mental, physical and emotional health will develop over time. Plus, I can’t wait to share my journey with you all!
I know you’re probably wondering how I can date myself, but please give me a moment to give you my background story that led me up to this moment.
My last relationship had its high and low points. One of the biggest low points was that we rarely went on dates. All I’ll say is that some years had gone by and the years before that it was few and far between. So yes, it’s been awhile since I’ve actually gone on a date. It’s been two years since I’ve been single and I still haven’t gone on a date.
I really haven’t had the time or energy to even start thinking about dating. In the past, I did go on dating apps just to see what I was missing, but eventually freaked out due to my fear of not knowing who I was truly talking to. Yes, I’ve seen too many episodes of Catfish. Don’t even get me started on the articles and videos I came across about dating app experiences gone horribly wrong. My fear of dating is real people!
Now, let me tell you the real reason I fear dating.
Crazy, right? Before you start yelling at me and telling me how I need to put myself out there to give love a chance. Stop it! I get it. I don’t want to end up alone. No one does, but being out of the game for a really long time can trigger some fears. Plus add in the fact that I’m on a natural hair journey, a vegan journey, a single parent journey and a hello my name is April Austin and if you want kids I’m not your girl journey.
Guys are going to love me, right?
All joking aside, I’m at a point in my life where I don’t want to deal with the bullshit. I’m on a path of learning what I want and don’t want in a relationship for the first time in my life. So, as I go through this journey I’m going to be dating myself. Reconnecting with who I am and really start to enjoy life. I never got a chance to experience that at a younger age. I graduated high school, experienced college for two years before dropping out and two years later became a mom. Like most moms, I was no longer the priority.
Don’t get me wrong, if the right guy comes along I’ll reconsider. Until then, I’m going to be enjoying some much needed me time and who knows if I may bump into someone during one of my outings. That’s how people use to meet back in the old days.
A week ago I decided to start a 21 day journey of getting back to the basics. I wanted to refocus my energy towards productivity and start focusing on myself mentally and physically.
Here’s what I posted on Twitter and Instagram:
On Monday, I was able to accomplish all of these goals (minus the blog post). I even walked in the rain! I was really proud of myself! Unfortunately, my week went downhill after that. While working my nine to five job on Tuesday morning, I got a running nose, itchy throat and started to sneeze. Yep, I caught a cold and here I thought I was feeling all accomplished from the day before. By the time I got home I couldn’t do anything but help my daughter with her homework, make her dinner and make myself go to bed. That’s how Wednesday played out too. So much for my 21 day challenge!
I didn’t want to give up so soon, so I stayed motivated and hoped that on Thursday I could hit the reset button. Unfortunately for me, I was reminded of how exhausting my day job could be when my co-worker a.k.a. right hand man is off Thursday and Friday. Plus I had a minor surgical procedure done Thursday that left me in discomfort for the next few days. So now I’m wondering why in the hell did I pick this week to start?
Instead of seeing this challenge as an utter failure on my end, I’ve decided to hit the reset button and start again on Monday. I literally have multiple deadlines breathing down my neck right now and I have to make this routine work. I don’t have a choice in the matter!
I could have easily written a post about how my 21 day challenge is going amazing and just secretly started back on Monday, but I have to be honest about my journey, which does include failures. I’m human. It happens.
Now it’s time to stop making excuses and get back on track.
Back in 2011, I started a blog that followed my screenwriting journey to becoming a working screenwriter. I finally ended that blog back in early 2017 due to the desire of wanting to write about something else. Plus I think I was a little frustrated with my screenwriting journey. Here I am writing about the struggles of how to “break in to Hollywood,” but nothing was really happening for me. It got a little depressing. I even stopped writing for a while. I wasn’t giving up on my dreams. I still wanted to be a working screenwriter, but real life issues were clashing with my fantasy world issues. Basically, my real life issues beat my fantasy worlds ass.
I had a lot of things going on that I had to deal with. I was unhappy with where my life was and I felt like I lost myself. I was single after being in a relationship for eleven years. I was a single mom raising a pre-teen daughter. I was unhappy with my body and the way I was eating. I felt lost and stuck.
So, I decided to do something about it. June of 2017, I decided to go vegan and I haven’t looked back.
At the end of August 2017, I did the big chop and it was the best decision I made that year.
As for my relationship status, I’m still single and have no desire to jump into a relationship. I love being able to just focus on myself and figure out what I want in life. That side of me has been neglected for years. I always sacrificed for everyone else, but now I’m finding time for myself, while still making sure my daughter is number one.
In regards to my writing, I’m just now starting to get back into the swing of things. It’s been a struggle, but I know that I’m at a point in my life where I can balance my personal life and my screenwriting goals.
In essence, that’s what this blog is about…
The journey of April Austin. Let’s see where this road takes me.